An Apache Legend

The HorseWisdom Invocation

Apache Legend invokes the soul wisdom of YEARNING (to have an intense feeling of longing or wishing for something; typically something that one has lost or been separated from)

Apache Legend was an Appaloosa gelding known as Sam. Sam, as a name, means ‘God hears’; ‘God has placed’.

The HorseWisdom Invitation

The legend of the black obsidian stone known as Apache Tears tells the story of mourning for healing loss and sorrow. According to the legend, a group of Apache warriors, upon realizing the US Cavalry had pursued them to the point of being trapped up on a mountain, wheeled their horses around and, rather than facing a gruesome death at the hands of their enemies, rode their horses off the edge of the mountain. The women who discovered their beloved husbands, fathers, sons and brothers dead at the bottom of the mountain shed tears upon tears for them; mourning the death of their warriors and the loss of their fighting spirit. As their tears hit the ground, they transformed into the translucent black obsidian stones known as Apache Tears. According to various sources, Apache Tears hold a strong energy of grounding, compassion and forgiveness for helping us to learn & embrace important soul lessons. They are sources of ancient spiritual knowledge. It is believed that in the same way that the Apache warriors recognized their mortal defeat and courageously chose to leap, Apache Tears bring wisdom granted in the face of dire situations to help guide one through loss into deciding the right relationship course of action.

Obsidian, in some circles, is thought to be a gemstone connected to the sign of Sagittarius; of hope, exploration and higher learning.

The HorseWisdom Insight 

*astrological insights adapted from the work & literature of Ellias Lonsdale’s Star Sparks/Inside Degrees & John Sandbach’s The Circular Temple

December 1, 1986 New Moon at 9°Sagittarius where once upon a time a 7-year-old child self wishes nightly upon a star for her own horse in the SEARCH FOR HEALING OF INVISIBLE BURDENS AND THE FINDING OF AWARENESS THROUGH THE OPEN INVITATION OFFERED BY COSMIC FORCES

Playful, exuberant, spontaneous, and elusive, you are restless under constraint, with all of civilization representing constraint. Desperate to be free. When not held down, you have spectacular abilities and affinities. But when bound by time, you become abrasive and provoking. Temperamental in extreme ways. Aching for free movement in a vast territory. Drawn to every extreme that exists. The body and soul of one who can never be identified, tamed, narrowed. You are the one who knows how the deep Earth is surging with volatile currents, and these bear all hope and promise if they are followed with open arms. The one who shows everybody what life is like when it lets itself go and contagiously ripples with permission and encouragement for each and all to come out and play and explore the far edges, and even perhaps over those edges into the greater wilderness. Claiming the allegiance of those whose wildness is no passing whim, but the only viable way.

Knowing there is something we need to do, to realize, and/or to resolve, we are eventually guided to it, and finding there is so much more to learn along the way. Constantly being invited to embark on journeys and adventures. Refusal of the invitation won’t make the offers go away, but will actually cause them to pursue even more. The way out of this is to give into the adventure, for it is actually the heart that is calling, and the true self that wants to be found. Finding of one thing and as you behold it, it becomes a symbol of something far greater. Giving of the self over to it, to learn anything and everything through the experiencing of it. This is the universe’s gift to you, as well as your gift to yourself. The profound gift of acceptance of the mystery, and the allowance of hoping and wishing for what is to come to be the force that empowers and guides us through.

Apache Legend’s Uranus awakening innovative breakthrough at 25°Sagittarius PERCEIVING OF LATENT HIDDEN POTENTIALS

When life is a dream, not too much of selfhood is asked for or welcome. Ancestors, previous lifetimes, collective currents feed the dream, keep it alive. The self hugs a secretive outpost of neither being with nor being against. One of the remarkable things that happens is that spirit can speak and reveal much. One of the habits which easily proliferates here is to take no responsibility for anything. And one of the primal paths through is to drift deeper down in and to let all ego go, yet move with the soul as it is guided to each and every place it is meant to travel.

Sensitivity to what is not there, and realizing that there is always something else influencing our life - even when we are not directly aware of it. This becomes the invitation and the calling forth.

The HorseWisdom Illumination

*illumination of the Acupuncture Point Messages from the work of Michelle Marie Gervais’ Spiritual Portraits of the Energy Release Points Compendium

~ Lung Channel Point 7, Childhood Mystery/Broken Sequence ~

Virtues: This Energy Release Point empowers the function of receiving inner clarity and letting go; surrendering that which no longer serves. It speaks to the Universal Principle that All is Rhythm. We receive and let go. We take in and we move out; everything is rhythmic and everything has an ebb and flow. When we seek to control or stop the rhythm, the sequence of the Divine order of things seems broken, and chaos ensues. Unblocking and activating this Energy Release Point activates a return to balance by strengthening clarity of the concept of detachment, of releasing and letting go to find unity and centre.

Disharmonies: Lack of clarity; feelings of loss and longing stemming from childhood; difficulty with letting go and moving forward; grief and sadness; treats loss of consciousness.

~ Pericardium Channel Point 6, Inner Frontier Gate ~ 

Virtues: This Energy Release Point embodies our journey into our hearts - the frontier and unexplored territory known as the borderlands. The journey into this transition zone cannot help but create transformation - for in the act of undertaking the journey itself one is transformed through the encounter of the unknown. As a gate point, one is empowered to come and go at will understanding the appropriate boundaries in relationship to the sanctity of the Heart and sharing oneself with others. Qualities of compassion, connection, warmth and Light are accessed and bring the perseverance to proceed onward with the journey. Unlocking the gate to this inner heart space signifies a profound turning point for the one willing to pass through and transform pain and hurt into blessings of peace and calmness. Unblocking and activating this Energy Release Point can assist in healing the Self from trauma and betrayal.

Disharmonies: Closing the heart in self protection from the pain of intimacy; feelings of being stabbed or shot in the heart due to betrayal or painful separation; projecting old pain onto the present; heart pain; sadness; shock; restores balance between body and mind.

*PC 6 is also known as the ‘Broken Heart Gate’

~ Stomach Channel Point 12, Broken Bowl ~

Virtues: This Energy Release Point assists in reconstructing that which is shattered. This shattering of the energy field and emotional body can occur when one experiences great loss and remains in illusion and victim consciousness. This state of emotional pain or shatter comes from having poured oneself so completely into another that the integrity of one’s wholeness cannot withstand the void of emptiness. This can come from endings of dysfunctional, co-dependant relationships as well as relationships of all kinds. Unblocking and activating this Energy Release Point assists in moving through grief and loss. It assists in raising the consciousness from a personal ego centre to a transcendent larger picture. Moving pain into the heart space to be transformed to peace, forgiveness and joy in order to release suffering and re-birth. This transformational point assists in detachment and viewing the larger perspective. To see transition and change as an opportunity for growth; growth filled with enthusiasm of the new life experience which awaits. It empowers emotional freedom and unconditional love so that Soul evolution can continue in a self-sufficient way.

Disharmonies: Neediness; co-dependency; worry; deep longing; drama filled relationships; feelings of not enough, or not being enough; empty nest syndrome; control issues; intense grief; victim consciousness; personal attachment; sense of loss; loss of self; loss of individuality; loss of identity; inappropriate boundaries between parents and children. Physically this point impacts milk production for breast feeding; symbolizing self care; nurturance; teaching healthy boundaries to the baby; mother/child bonding. Improper bonding creates distrust of the world, instability of one’s centre and growing into a dysfunctional adult; inability to provide for oneself; inability to generate nourishment affecting the ability to be self-sufficient (physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually). In Broken Bowl, life is shattered, the illusion is broken and one falls to pieces.

*St 12 Broken Bowl is symbolic of being broken apart… broken open… breaking through…

~ Urinary Bladder Channel Point 40, Wail of Grief ~

Virtues: This Energy Release Point empowers stability through the movement of emotions. Emotions are an integral part of the health of the inner life. The emotion of sadness is one that is felt as full intensity, however, once it begins to flow, space is created which allows other emotions to flow as necessary. This Energy Release Point is also a command point for the back, helping one to stand strong and balanced, holding centre and integrity while moving through the process of releasing grief. Unblocking and activating this Energy Release Point helps provide the inner stability needed to move through intense emotions. By strengthening our stance, and staying in centre, we become a master of grounding the release of these overwhelming emotions rather than the erratic servant of them. Intense emotions can move through in a balanced way; creating space and empowering inner strength.

Disharmonies: Overwhelmed by grief, anxiety, for fear; difficulty keeping centred; weak-kneed; self-destructive tendencies leading to loss of control. Physical manifestation of frequent urination; loss of bladder control; unexplained swellings.

The HorseWisdom Initiation

Apache Legend initiates the journey into 14°Cancer SAVING WHAT IS VALUABLE FROM THE PAST TO USE FOR THE FUTURE

Unless tragedy strikes, a new Earth cannot be accessed. Only as all the old, familiar places dry up is there a path to walk revealed beneath, pristine and beckoning. It is no use looking back. The way lies right here, strewn with experience, memory, loss, and redemption by walking onward. It is a difficult, painstaking journey from here. You have to go so deep inside burrowing into the cave of navigational realization, that you are held, cherished, known, given all you need; yet as well required, commanded, to become entirely purposeful and to be the path and to cease all complaining and extraneous consciousness. This, in order to do what is here to do, with your entire being in ring- ing conviction and fidelity to the highest.

The fearful part of us is backward looking, attached to the past and nostalgic for long lost times. The courageous part of us has the power to learn from what has been accumulated - experiences and otherwise - to study it, see new aspects and let those findings be the groundwork for a future into higher consciousness. Here is gazing towards the farthest edges of the known, towards possibilities glowing faintly over the horizon. The courage to move toward a higher, more expansive spiritual state even when what you are faced with situations that seem uninviting, difficult or even insurmountable. A calling forward from our past in the support of a strengthening through our choosing of evolution.

Apache Legend’s Vertex Turning Point encounter at 27°Aries initiates LOCATING THE SOURCE OF TRAUMA AND THE TRIGGERING OF RELEASE

Living on the edge. Poised at many brinks. Swept up in a tide of changes--chaotic and magnificent. Everywhere at once, you are creative and generative, overwhelmed and overstimulated, but primarily exulting in yourself and your emergent capacities. Falling in love with the dance of destiny you find yourself in. Ecstatic release in being able to catch the spark as it flies. Very fast, very strong, very remarkable, and knowing it. The world is both wide open and oddly synchronistic. Anybody can go anywhere and do anything. But sometimes you come up against yourself no matter where you look, and you meet your shadows and delusions coming back at you in every form you are desperate to deny. A frenzy pursues stimulus, entertainment, distraction and diversion. And the world arena turns into an hysterical proposition of thematic echoes making the whole journey too obvious, too direct, too brutal. The only postponement tactic left is to devise whole worlds of self-justification and self-vindication, to harbour you just long enough to let you face the raucous feedback loop that is trying to tell you that being a personality on the loose is a great disguise and is not covering your nakedness and never did.

Drawn to tune into whatever will bring forth messages from beyond. A sensing of hidden wealth and stored up resources that have been carefully preserved. Shocks and surprises that trigger the liberation of blocked energies, releasing fear and pent-up tension. What has been contained and held back may now be liberated.

Apache Legend’s Anti-Vertex effecting personal motive for soul growth at 27°Libra of KEEPING ALL SITUATIONS OPEN TO POSSIBILITIES THROUGH ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF THE INHERENT POWER WITHIN DESIRES

Pursuing what is desired and nothing else. Probing, waiting, stalking, strategically watching for openings. One-pointedly intent upon grabbing and holding what you lost somewhere and must find again. Going for reminders, facsimiles, totems. Hungry for proof that it is there, that it is possible. Alone forever. You are deeply seeking the other side of yourself, the inner partner, the true motivating spark. You have gotten lost in the dark, identified with the one who needs and lacks, the one who is broken fragments of experience. But you are hot on the track of any signs that your love essence can be found in another, in a situation, or within yourself. You search everywhere and come up empty. The one inside will be there, when the outer versions cannot sate your hunger, and as a last resort you feel into your own solitary spaces, willing to meet whoever is there and love them with all your heart.

Everything is completely open to the possibilities of change. Here is the realization that we are not limited by the seeming restrictions of memory or the past. Opening up of new potentials in seemingly closed forms. The ability to look closer and closer at things, and the seeing into of more and more information that unexpectedly comes forth. The force and intensity of our desires that awakens within us the need of finding a way to consciously fulfill them. Realization of the spiritual importance of giving a way for what we have to be given, this is the way to ultimately gain self-fulfillment as it furthers the evolution of everyone involved.